Melody

  
    Melody let me hear my deepest desire. Sometimes we really are not able to find out what exactly we want. Listen to the sound here in your heart. Through the lyrics, you could find out the true self.

    I spent a whole afternoon in front of the piano. With my hands touching the keyboards. Felt like there is another special connection between us.  Someone knows me, even I don't have to say anything. That is you. 

Vanish

    Life just like fireworks. You could let it be gorgeous, fantastic, and fill of joy. But you could also let it become miserable and fade away imediately. It could be strong and tough, but it also could be vulnerable and fragile. Depends on how do you choose to live your life.

    Humans, always make some mistakes. They always forget that actually they have to cherish the thing they own at present. And always feel regret after they lose it. We just never get the lesson, and always get hurt from it, but never remember it.

    Five years ago, I just turned to be 8th grade. During the summer vacation, my grandfather died. Actually I knew that he was sick for a while, but I felt nothing big deal. I thought that he would recover soon. He was the most opmistic person I have ever met. Until one day, after we visited him, he started not eating medicines, and that is the last time I saw him. The last thing I said to him just a simple GOODBYE. I even didn't give him a hug or hold his hand. When you were gone then I realized that actually that is all your plan. I picked a time you wanted to leave this world. And the funeral was exactly in my summer vacation, then I didn't even have to ask my teacher to take a few days off.


    Through the glasses, I saw your face. It was so close, but felt so far. You still wore a smile, the one I would never ever forget. My mind turned into a film, all the pieces of frames showed up in my mind. The time we had, the time we shared. Every jokes you told. Just like a radio played it nonstop. 


    Already five years, want to know how are you doing in heaven. Maybe one day I could see you again, but when the time comes, the first thing I want to see is your smile.

The Thing Surrounds Me

    Actually I just deleted a post, which is about my profile. After thinking for a while, then I realize that actually nobody wants to know that.

    Want to talk about Common Reaction and Overreaction. Believe me, it happens a lot on me. So apparently the differences between these two stuff completely depend on person. And definitly different from person to person. 

    Just make a example. Yesterday, I had a huge fight with my friend. The reason is that she asked me that if I want to go out with her, then give her a call. Apparently I wasn't in a really nice mood, so I didn't call her. Then she started shouting at me, blaming on me for why didn't I give her a call. Basically I just followed her requirment, and she was so mad at me. So now, my definition of overreaction shows up.  I completely considered her as being overreacting. But what she told me is like Im the one who should go to hell and burn to dust.  

    So what should I do, the misunderstanding has already happened. And I didn't have any strength to fight with her anymore, so I chose to be silent, even though I still got lots of curse and dirty words. Then I thought of it. everything's happen has its own reason and some of the reason we might not know. So what I did, was not keeping shouting at her, but tried to find out what exactly has happened. Guess what, she just broke up with her boyfriend who has been with her for almost three years.  And what she wanted is just talked to me. Because she is too tough to admit her failure between her and her boyfriend. Now I become a sinner?

    Sometimes we have to stand in others shoes and think of it. Don't just make a quick definiton and object. You will hurt people, and you will also get hurt from it. I could have just made things worse, had a huge fight with her, but I found out the reason, then we become as close as before. Nothing is impossible, if you believe, and try to understand. I believe that everything gets its solution, and there lots of problems will be avoided. This story gives me a very deep thought, because lived with it before. 

    We all have rights to express out own emotions, but we really have to think that who is the target that we are going to shout for. Once you choose a wrong person, then you might lose him forever. Sometimes being honest might be difficult, but it's truly the nice way you won't regret that much. I completely know that kind of feelings.